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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]My growing skills at judo made it hard for other guys to beat me and to me, it felt like cheating and, indeed, before some rassling matches, some guys would tell me not to use that "karate stuff" on them because it didn't give them a fair chance for them to "make" me suck their dick or "make" me submit to being fucked. And, yeah - a lot of times, I'd "lose" on purpose, not just to do what the winner wanted but it also gave them a chance to save face and more so when they knew they couldn't out-wrestle me and even if they were actually stronger than I was.

"You could have beat me and gone first," one guy told me as he was driving his dick in and out of my ass.

"I know... but I wanted you to do it me," I said as I humped back against him.

Yep - it was really that easy.

The guy I'd wind up falling in love with? He used the rassling thing to make his intentions known and the bad part is that his intentions went right over my head! I couldn't figure out why this skinny, red-headed guy would want to wrestle with a judo and karate black belt and, yeah, it still embarrasses me that I didn't pick up a clue about his intentions even though I was very aware that when we wrestled, his dick was very, very hard the whole time.

When he finally told me why, gods, I was so embarrassed to learn that I missed every hint and clue he was giving me even though I also had to admit that I hadn't had sex initiated like this in a long time.

"You could have just told me," I said to him.

"You might have said no," he said.

"I might have... but you still could have just asked; I haven't done this since I was like 12 or 13!"

Still, it set the stage for the two of to, um, wrestle without any clothes on and my new boyfriend and lover did, on occasion, liked it rough and enjoyed me manhandling him and making him submit to having my dick deep in his throat and/or buried to the hilt in his ass.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]This kind of faking the funk was pretty common and would sometime happen in the form of a dare: If I can pin you, I'm gonna do it to you but if you can pin me, you can do it to me. In this case, the tussling would be... vigorous and, depending on the other guy, not so much; some guys would deliberately let themselves be pinned so the winner could have his way with him. Sometime the dare would be about sucking dick and tussling would be all about not only the test of strength it was but who'd get to suck dick first and, again, some guys wouldn't put up much of a fight and let the other guy win so he could get his dick sucked... first.

Sometimes it was a code phrase to hear, "You wanna rassle?" I don't know if adults ever picked up on this - and, in later years I was of a mind that they did - but it was again the perfect cover and excuse to be in such close physical contact and, if nothing else, feel each other's hard dicks rubbing on the good spots. If adults were aware of us tussling - and, again, I thought they figured out what we were really doing - they'd come tell us, "You boys cut that out or take it outside!" One father came to fuss at us for making a lot of noise rassling; he walked in, saw his son kinda humping me, and said, "You boys better not be doing what I think you're doing!"

Of course, we said, "We're just rassling!" and his dad gave us the stink eye, a clear clue that he didn't believe a word of what we said - then told us to go outside and play... another code phrase we came to understand to mean that if you're gonna have sex with each other, do it where we can't see you doing it because if we see you, well, it wasn't hard to figure out what was gonna happen.

For a lot of us, the pretense of wrestling really wasn't needed; if we wanted to do it, we'd just say that we did then go somewhere to do it to each other. For other guys, it was like rassling was a "must" to, I'd say, really get them in the mood and without the embarrassment of just asking the other guy to do it to you or the often unspoken thing that said if you "beat" me, as the loser, I have to suck your dick or give you my ass to fuck - whichever you, as the winner, preferred.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]It was the easiest way to find out what guys were interested in it and who wasn't; it was a way to get a cheap thrill even if nothing else happened. I was wrestling with a guy - really practicing my judo on him - and I was having fun tossing him around and pinning him, getting a kick out of him struggling to escape when, in a moment where I had him in a full-body press, he whispered in my ear, "I want you to do it to me... right now..."

But I knew he'd want to given how much he had been humping against me as we tussled. I just took his pants and underwear off, got between his legs, and pushed my boner into him; he groaned and whispered, "This is what I wanted to do in the first place!"

I whispered back, "Why didn't you just say so?" - but I knew why because you also found out that, sometimes, just asking a guy to do it with you could get you punched in the face.

He didn't answer - and he didn't have to. I fucked him and came inside him; I pulled out and laid on my stomach and said, Your turn..." The feeling of his dick pushing into me was heavenly and made a bit easier because we were both very sweaty; I felt dreamy and even a lot like a girl; I was even whispering over and over, "Do it to me... do it to me..." until he yelped that he was gonna do it - then followed by feeling his prick twitching inside me as he shot his stuff.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]One of the things I learned about guys is that some tended to hide their interest in sex under the guise of roughhousing and wrestling which was the perfect "excuse" to be in close physical contact with another guy and being in a position to be on top of the guy... or have a guy moving around on top of you and with little thought about actually pinning you down and making you say, "Uncle!"

I guess that in a way, it was... easier or more covert than coming right out and asking a guy, "Hey, do you wanna do it with me?" Sometimes, you just didn't know if a guy was into it and you might not want to come out and ask him... but getting into some tussling? If nothing else, the physical exertion would get dicks very hard and I quickly learned not to be all that surprised to find a guy "secretly" humping me or feeling his erection pressing against me in just the right places. I even learned not to ask the stupid question of, "What are you doing?" because I knew what they were doing and I knew why they were doing it.

I started practicing and studying judo literally two week after experiencing dick for the first time so I learned a lot about taking someone down... and holding them down for as long as I wanted to; I also knew how to escape from being held down but, um, yeah, when a guy and I were rassling and he was holding me down - and because I let him - and I could feel his hardness rubbing against my crotch or my ass, I didn't have a problem just going with it and more so when, a lot of times, we'd wind up doing it for real... unless the other guy came during the tussling and now he's embarrassed and even a little out of the game. In this, I'd act... innocent and ask him what was wrong... when it was clear to see what was wrong and as indicated by the growing wet spot in the front of his pants.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[QUOTE=Ebonybifemme7;343768]I used to meet guys/girls in the early 2000s before dating apps came out. It was mostly just now non existent and unpopular social networking sites and yahoo chat rooms. Some guys I even gave head too. I used to play with women's breast and let them have playtime with me (sex toys sex vids kissing touching ass slapping). I miss those days. Since 2010 things have really changed. Im getting deeper into webcam modeling and camming especially with people from other countries. I'm too paranoid of sex trafficking and being pimped or something worse happening. I'm happy that I was safe back then and I didn't get an STD. I always had condoms and morning after pills. I understand it's different for men because guys need sex more than women.[/QUOTE]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Still, it was an amazing thing to learn how to do; guys appreciated you more when you could make all of their cock disappear and even hold it there for long moments; they appreciated it more if I could make it disappear at the moment they started to cum and sometimes I would... if I felt like it; otherwise, they'd start to cum and I'd back off and leave just enough of their dick in my mouth so I could taste their spunk and swallow it easier. Found out that some guys didn't want their dick to vanish like that because for them, it made them cum way before they wanted to and, um, sometimes they'd tell me not to do that... and I'd do it anyway because in my mind, the pleasure of sucking his dick and making him cum wasn't just his alone and I had way too many cock sucking experiences not to know about - and understand - the sheer pleasure I got from sucking on a guy's dick.

Sometimes I'd be sucking a guy's cock and know that he's thinking that I'm doing this to make him feel good... but knowing that I wasn't. Maybe before I learned how to go deep that was true... but for me, well, that changed but, okay - if he thought I was eating his dick for his pleasure alone, he was free to think that... but I knew the truth of things. Being able to eat a whole dick is always a challenge and one I rarely fail to accept and, yeah, maybe it's because I'm "arrogant" enough to believe that there isn't a dick I can't suck and not that many I can make completely disappear. But I'm guilty with a reason because I did, somehow, managed to completely swallow a measured 13" dick. It wasn't easy and my throat was very sore days afterward but, yeah, I did it and it surprised the shit out of the guy... and surprised me, too.

So, yeah - I have a reason for thinking the way I do about it because if I could make that dick disappear... but in the doing, yeah, I was reminded that just because you can do it doesn't mean that you should.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]The one thing I learned, even early on, was that I hated someone grabbing my head and fucking me in the mouth - and this, of course, was way before face-fucking became a thing. That fixed in my mind that there's a big difference between sucking a dick and having it fucked into your mouth. Yeah, I knew that you could make your mouth feel like pussy and all that... but the mouth isn't a pussy and there's that whole being able to breathe thing to consider and, quite a few times, I'd either stop sucking the guy who had a vice grip on my head or, if he wouldn't let go, well, let's just say that he didn't like how I'd make him let go of my head, like the one guy who refused to stop ramming his cock down my throat while holding my head... and I gave him an uppercut to the nuts... then gave him another one for good measure.

When he woke up, I was dressed and said, "If we ever do this again - and we probably won't - I'm thinking that the next time I try to stop you from doing that, you're gonna stop right away, huh?" A lot of girls would tell me how much they hated it when guys did that and I completely understood why so whenever a girl was sucking my dick, I just wouldn't grab their head and "make" them suck me. I might put my hand gently on their head - and I'd feel them tense but then relax when they realized I just had my hand there and nothing more.

Through all of this, I most certainly learned why girls/women didn't like sucking dick... because a lot of guys would make them not like doing it... and I was determined to not be one of those guys when someone was sucking my dick. Sure... it was different when whoever was sucking my dick would grab my ass and shove me into their mouth deeper although it took me a while to really get that what they wanted me to do was to fuck their mouth. Oh, okay! Duh! Even then, I wouldn't grab their head or try to fuck more of myself into their mouth than they could handle or wanted in there. My second and current wife asked me, while we were dating, why I wasn't grabbing her head and fucking her mouth and I told her that it was because most women didn't like it... so I didn't do it... and for some reason, that didn't make her happy so, going forward and whenever she blew me, I had to "learn" how to grab her head to hold it still so I could shove every inch of myself in and out of her mouth and more so when I came; she liked it better when I was fully buried and cumming...

And I didn't bother to ask her why although I reasoned that she knew the same thing I did - you can't taste cum that far back and it's easier to swallow.

It's a skill a lot of cock suckers want to master... but aren't able to. Along the way, I learned a lot of physiology about mouths, like some mouths are just smaller and facial muscles can only be "stressed" so much before the cock sucking for them becomes a painful problem. Both men and women would ask me how to take it deep and I'd tell them what I learned... but with the caveat to never try to do more than you're able to do and more so when I'd heard too many horror stories of both guys and girls being choked or wound up breathing sperm or saliva and a rumor was running around that some guy actually choked a girl to death with his dick and ignored her attempts to get away from him so she could breathe.

Don't know if it was really true but, at least for me, it was something to pay attention to and a reminder to be the one in control of things when I had a dick in my mouth... and knowing that I had the muscle, skill, and will to make a guy stop when I needed him to. I even learned to tell a guy to just lie there and let me do what I do and enjoy it - I don't need any help sucking your dick, okay? You can't stop a guy from that automatic fucking motion when it starts getting good to them but you don't have to let it get out of hand and to the point where having his dick in your mouth stops being fun and starts being a problem for you.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]I was learning that a lot of guys liked to bury their dick deep in my mouth - then shoot jizz, making me have to step up my learning ability to deal with that so I wouldn't have their stuff going down the wrong pipe, which happened from time to time - there's nothing worse than having sperm coming out of your nose and feeling your body reacting to pretty much an attempt to drown and most of the time, that reaction was quite violent... and messy and, yep, sometimes throwing up was the answer to being able to keep breathing or, at the very least, not passing out; found out that passing out with a dick lodged in your mouth and throat wasn't fun at all and was very embarrassing.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]By the time I turned 12, there weren't that many dicks I couldn't go deep on... including the very few remaining adult dicks I was lucky to suck. It was quite the ego trip to be able to do that to a grownup dick and hear them gasping with surprise or, as one guy did, the moment I made his dick disappear, he shot his stuff right away and there was so much of it I almost choked on it and damned near passed out because his dick was swelling up so much every time it shot that it was cutting off my ability to breathe.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]But it was worth it. It was worth having a sore throat afterwards or feeling that toothache-like pain of over-stressed jaw and neck muscles. I even learned how to stop guys from ramming their dick into my mouth and throat - all I had to do was what a lot of girls learned to do: Put my hand on his stomach and push back or, sometimes easier, when he pulled back, just wrap my hand around the base of his dick and keep it there and, yeah, some guys would try to remove my hand but a good, hard squeeze would send the message rather nicely.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]I even learned that you didn't always have to take it deep if you didn't want to and that it was always... good to let a guy know that you could do it and, I guess, it was a "nice" way to tease them and to kinda control them; if you want me to do that again, then you should just hold still while I do it. I - and my friends - had learned the skill of taking a dick deep and I can't - couldn't - speak for them but I loved it whenever someone - guy or gal - could make all of my dick disappear... and just like I now knew how to do it.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]Years later, I'm sitting in a movie theater in San Francisco watching "Deep Throat" for the first time and when Linda Lovelace made that huge dick disappear, a lot of guys in the theater gasped and cheered... and I thought to myself, "I can do that..." so watching her do that very famous thing wasn't that big of a deal for me - but it was impressive just the same. I found that it's a skill that one has to be able to not only master but refine but once you learn it - and do it as much as you can - it becomes second nature that you can do it without having to really think about it and that would happen because you were able to train your body not to react badly to having dick - any dick - fully in your mouth and, yeah, sometimes into your throat directly.[/FONT][/SIZE]