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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I’ll be 65 next month... and there hasn’t been a time since I became aware of my sexuality that I haven’t had to listen to stuff like this or spent so much time trying to explain it to others until I just gave up trying to explain it.

Fifty-five years - soon to be fifty-six of them - being bisexual and, no, I have never felt like my “innocence” was stolen from me because I gave it up willingly the year before I learned about dick. I understand what it’s like to be bisexual... but the rest of the world?

They're still stuck back in 1964 and asking questions that they can’t or won’t accept. Bisexuality remains an impossibility today as it did back then.

How can I be bisexual and married to a woman? Um, what does that have to do with anything? I love women and, yeah, I like being married to one. Again, did you just miss what “bisexual” means and literally so?

What the fuck do you mean I don’t have to get pissy about it because you’re entitled to your opinion? I get pissy about it because your opinion is, well, wrong and you clearly don’t understand a damned thing about this because if you did, we wouldn’t be having this conversation and you wouldn’t be under the impression that I’m being pissy about it.

Trust me... you’ve never seen me really get pissy about it... and you really don’t want to. You should be glad you weren’t asking me this shit when I was like 15 or 16 - I would have chewed a hole in your ass big enough to fly an A380 through.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]If you like having sex with men, doesn’t that mean you’re really gay? Um, do you even know what the word “bisexual” means? No - I’m not gay. Sheesh!

How come you don’t like men and women equally? Uh, because I don’t? Because people are different? Why would you think this is a 50/50 kind of thing?

Silence.

Do you like men like you do women? No, I don’t. Not attracted to men like that... but I do like and am attracted to dick. And before you ask, no - I’m still bisexual and no matter what you think About my lack of attraction to men.

The “sexual” part of bisexual is still valid... or did you not understand that either? Do I mean that I’m homoerotic? Heteroflexible? No, I don’t. I’m bisexual and I’m good with that. Heteroflexible my ass...

Are you a top or a bottom? Depends on how I’m feeling and, yes, I’ve topped and bottomed in the same session. Which do I like better? Why are you trying to get me to make choices that I feel no need to make?

Does it mean that you don’t like the way women suck your dick? Oh, hell, no - do I look crazy to you? Why would you think that I wouldn’t?

Oh, that’s right - you think I’m gay. Or you believe that it’s impossible for someone to want, like, and enjoy sex with both men and women.


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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]That “either/or” mindset many have about bisexuality. Being asked time and time again which do I prefer or trying to put me in some kind of box by asking me to choose one over the other.

While I understand that, for some, bisexuality is an either/or kind of thing; for some it’s a measure of last resort, even an act of desperation as well as a replacement - can’t get any pussy? Time to look for a dick until some trim can be had!

Heard this way back in 1964... still hearing it in 2020. If I had the proverbial dollar for every time I’ve had to say to someone, “It’s not men or women - it’s men and women!” I’d be Bill Gates rich.

Do I prefer pussy or cock? Yes! If you had to choose, which would you choose? Both, damn it - what part of “bi” don’t you understand? Wait... what do you mean I can only choose one? Are you for real? Why choose one when I know I don’t have to?
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Apparently, what she said to Jimmy was, “get behind me and fuck me”. I think he probably thought I would get out from underneath her and I probably should have but before I could move, she raised her ass up and back a little until the head of his cock was just touching her pussy and he went ahead and sank about half of his cock into her. That view and the way she started sucking my cock brought me to the decision to stay put. I think that’s what she had in mind all along. She started rocking back and forth, fucking herself on his cock but at a much slower pace than he had fucked her at earlier and taking my cock deeper into her mouth. At one point, she released my cock from her mouth and in between gasps and moans, she asked, “Are you enjoying the view?” Jimmy and I both grunted a loud yes and Jean kind giggled at that before swallowing my cock again.


I guess Jimmy caught on that she had meant that question for me because he seemed to decide to take charge of fucking her. He slightly pushed my hands off Jean’s ass and replaced them with his as he started pounding his cock into her pussy harder but at the same pace she had set which was slow. Watching his cock slide into her was incredible. Each time he bottomed out inside her, I felt her body jolt and hearing the slap of him against her ass was again a huge turn on overload for me (and for her, she later told me). She started screaming with my cock as deep in her mouth as she could take it and I could feel little splashes of her juice as on my face as she shook through another big orgasmic wave. Before her orgasm started slowing, she raised her head letting my cock fall out of her mouth and was gasping and cursing loudly. That set Jimmy off. I felt him start shaking but he didn’t change how he was fucking her. Her orgasm was beginning to fall off a little when she felt it too and that sent her tone and gasping back up a notch. I doubt either one of them heard me moan as I watched his cock pulse as he came inside her again, but it was a very erotic and mesmerizing sight for me. They both slowed and he slipped his cock out of her pussy. Again, he fell across the bed, this time hitting his head on the side rail. He kind of laughed and said “Ow” but just laid there catching his breath as I nudged Jean to let me up. She rolled onto her back then reached over and started stroking my cock with her hand. I was still very hard but I was laying there, absorbing what I had just seen and enjoying her gentle, lazy stroking for a few minutes before I sat up.


Jimmy and I were stretched out on the bed with Jean turned the opposite way in between us and when I sat up, I could see she had that big happy, crazy grin on her face and she had her other hand in between his legs, lightly caressing his balls with her fingers. She turned her head and looked at me, her grin got bigger and she started nodding like she was listening to a song. I rolled over, crawled in between her legs and got into position to enter her. As I slid my cock into her incredibly hot and slick pussy, she wrapped her arms and legs around me. We barely lasted more than a few minutes before she started cumming again and I followed right behind her.


We all laid there for awhile, talking and laughing, before Jimmy asked if he could still get a ride home. It was then that we realized it was a little after 6am and the sky was getting light outside. Later that afternoon, after we had slept a bit, we had to go load the gear back into where we rehearsed which was the keyboard player's house. We told the rest of the band about the break-in but nothing about the rest of the evening. When we got home later that evening, Jean told me that Sean, our bass player (and one of her occasional lovers) had cornered her while I was hauling gear in, and confessed to being the one that had seen her sucking Jimmy's cock in the bathroom. He jokingly gave her a hard time about it, saying he might have to tell me what he saw. She said, "But I had the last laugh, though. You should have seen his face when I said go ahead, he probably won't believe you because he knows how drunk you were last night". I think the rest of the band guys eventually figured out what had gone on, but I probably won't ever know for sure.


All in all, it was an incredible, insane, fun night that actually turned out to be the last straw. In the next couple of days, we decided we needed to get the hell out of small town Arkansas and into a more interesting life in Atlanta. Our only regret was that we didn't talk the rest of the band into going with us.

As usual, Jean’s intuition for lovers paid off big time. Not only was Jimmy exceptionally well hung but for someone in his early 20’s, he was quite remarkably skilled. He fucked her holding her thighs up like that for a while, then slipped his arms out from under them and fell forward onto his hands. He started fucking her harder and faster. Between the sight and sounds of him fucking her and her moaning around my cock, I was in turn on overload. Somehow, I managed to keep from cumming. I knew it wouldn’t be long, and it wasn’t, with him fucking her like that, before she was cumming and screaming around my cock. That was one of her multitude of favorite sexual things…cumming with a cock in her mouth. She loved trying to get as much of it down her throat as she could as her orgasm waved over her. When her waves started subsiding, she let go of my cock and said she wanted to switch. Jimmy slipped his cock out of her and she rolled onto her hands and knees, turned around, and started licking and sucking the head of his cock. I watched for several minutes as she gently worked just the head of his cock with her lips and tongue and occasionally caressed his balls with her fingers before I crawled underneath her so I could lick her pussy. I felt her jolt a little when I flicked my tongue against her clit and a second later, heard him moan as I assume she sucked him deeper into her mouth. Even though I was having to keep up with her slight rocking motion as I licked and sucked her pussy, it wasn’t long before she was rolling through another orgasm. I held on and continued licking her as she rocked harder and screamed around Jimmy’s cock. When she slowed back down a little, I got out from underneath her and into position to slide my cock into her.

As I slowly eased my cock into her, my turn on overload went back up as I felt how hot and wet her pussy was and realized that her orgasm hadn’t really faded, but that she was in her leveled off orgasmic buzz plateau. This was made even worse when I noticed the Jimmy was slightly pumping his hips, fucking his cock in and out of her mouth. She later told that that had set her off too. We stayed in that position for quite some time with Jean riding through another orgasm before she straightened upright long enough to turn around. She had a huge happy grin on her face as she rested her hands on my shoulders, then leaned in and kissed me long and hard. She made a very intense eye contact and grinned real big as she went back down to on all fours and took my cock into her mouth. She told me later that she grinned so big because she was really turned on by the thought of me smelling and tasting him on her face. She sucked me in deep as Jimmy pushed his cock into her pussy. I’m sure she could feel my cock become harder as I watched her ass shake, heard the soft wet slap, and felt her body move each time he slammed into her, because her sucking on my cock became very intense. It wasn’t but a few more minutes before I was cumming in her mouth, or I should say down her throat, because she had swallowed all of my cock and was again screaming around it through another orgasm. It was a pretty powerful orgasm for me but she kept me in her mouth and kept sucking as Jimmy kept up his medium but hard pace on her pussy.


My level of excitement was way more than enough to keep my cock hard, but my knees were getting a little stiff, so I slipped out of her mouth and stretched out on the bed beside them. Her grunts and groans from being pounded so hard with such a big cock were a lot louder now without a cock in her mouth and I think that had a big effect on Jimmy, because after a while he actually sped up his pounding and started moaning and groaning a bit too. It was a little bit of a strange and different experience for me, laying there watching and listening to him cum inside Jean, and being that turned on by it, but it wasn’t that strange. When he finally slowed and slipped his cock out of her, he fell out across the end of the bed, catching his breath. Jean folded her arms in front of her and laid her head in them facing me with a big, happy, glazey eyed grin on her face. She stayed that way for a few minutes, then glanced down toward the end of the bed and saw Jimmy resting on his side. She looked back at my still hard cock and said, “Time for round 2?” as she stretched out next to me. We laid there for a while with her idly stroking my cock and talking to us until she decided to get things going again by rolling over on top me and settling her pussy on my face. I wrapped my arms around her thighs, grabbed her ass with my hands and started lightly kissing her pussy. She started teasing the head of my cock with her tongue and needless to say, I was still in turn on overload with her doing that while she pressed her extremely wet pussy harder onto my face. After a while, I felt the bed shift and realized he was now kneeling next to us. She released my cock from her mouth and I felt her lean over a little toward Jimmy to suck on his cock. As I began licking her pussy lips and clit harder, she began going back and forth between us, sucking his cock for a little while then switching back to mine. It wasn’t long before she was back up on her orgasmic plateau and I was getting more than a little taste of his cum and hers.


She started pumping her hips and pressing down against my tongue a little harder and I was about to ease her up a little, when she suddenly untangled herself from my arms and crawled down my body. She sat down on my cock, reverse cowgirl and now I could see that Jimmy was still kneeling beside us with one hand on her shoulder and with the other he was stroking his fully erect cock. I put my hands on her hips and started rocking her back and forth gently. We went like this for quite a while with Jean’s hands on my thighs and her head down a little and both Jimmy and I watching her as she rode my cock. She suddenly sat more upright, turned and looked at Jimmy, and said, “Oh yeah, that’s what I need”, as she leaned over and took his cock back into her mouth. In that position, I had a much better view of her sucking his cock and was blown away by how erotic that vision was. Jean knew I was enjoying that but she had another view for me in mind and soon slipped off my cock, crawled backward a little and planted her pussy back on my face. It took me a little maneuvering to get my arms back under her thighs and while I was doing that, she said something I couldn’t make out. Her mouth went back to my cock as I felt the bed shift again until he was kneeling behind her and above my head.....

Our insane night with Rags took place in the early fall of '91. My 2nd wife, Jean (aka Babs!) and I had been playing in a rock band together for a little over 6 years and we had been living together for a little over 5 years. We lived in a small, very old house in the small town we had both grown up in, in Arkansas. I had just turned 30 and Jean was 27. We had played sexually with other people on several occasions and had a pretty wide palette of sexual tastes between us. But, we had gotten tired of beating our heads against a wall trying to make an original rock n roll band work in small town Arkansas and had at that point already been talking about moving, so we were kinda in an all around itchy, restless mood.

A few months before we moved to Atlanta, we played a party gig at someone’s house. It was supposed to have been a sort of bachelor party for a friend of our drummer but it turned into more of a regular party since girlfriends, wives, and the fiance showed up early on and stayed through the night. The house was way out in the county away from town and since we were set up on the front lawn, we knew we would have stop playing by 10 o’clock or the Sheriff’s deputies would show up. I did my normal routine of staying sober at a gig in anticipation of the case of beer I had in the fridge at home, but everyone else in the band got pretty drunk over the course of 3 sets. When we got done playing, my band mates, including Jean, tried to help pack up the gear. For the safety of the gear and my own sanity, I told them to just leave it to me, so they all continued partying and drinking in the house.
With a little help from our very drunk keyboard player, loading the heavier stuff, the gear got packed in the van in about an hour and half. Remarkably, at about the same time I was closing the doors of the van, Jean came out of the house with a younger guy, that everyone called Rags (we later found out his name was Jimmy) that I had seen her talking to earlier. She asked if we could give him a ride into town…I said, “yeah, but I don’t know where he’s gonna ride. The van’s full of gear”. She said, “We can fit, I’ll sit in his lap”. I said, “Ok cool”.

It took us about 40 minutes to get back to town but after we had been riding for about 10 minutes, Jean asked if we could stop by the house before we took him home since we had cold beer there. I said ok kind of reluctantly.

A couple of minutes later, she leaned over to me and whispered, “You remember me telling you about that hole in this pair of jeans?” “Yeah?” “Well, he found it”. I looked at her as her little evil grin turned into an ‘OH!’ and her eyes got wide. That was my ‘ah ha’ moment. So that’s what she’s getting at. That realization made driving even more difficult than it already was since the tires on the van were really bad at the time. I thought for a minute then said, “What is it you want to do, Babs?” She said, “Well since I’ve already sucked his cock, I want to get fucked”. I said, “Oh really? How did that happen?” She said, “Well I walked into the bathroom and Jimmy was just getting done and, well you know, I couldn’t resist”. I said, “Yeah, I know how you can’t resist”. She added, “Hopefully, everyone was so drunk they won’t remember that someone was peeking in the window. That’s why I decided we should come find you and see if we could move this party to our house”. Over the next 25 minutes that it took to get home, the conversation got steadily raunchier, punctuated by the occasional moan since she was rubbing both of us through our pants. It was almost 1 am when we finally got to the house and the night went from crazy to insane crazy. We opened the door, walked into the living room, and stopped.
TV and VCR, gone. Four track recording machine and speakers, gone. Microwave and case of beer in the fridge, gone. Someone had broken into the house and taken just about everything of value. Jean was extremely pissed off because she had a good idea she knew who had done it and she spent a while trying to get a hold of them. We eventually called the police. The cop that responded was kind of a jerk and he spent a lot more time questioning us about where we had been, what we had been doing, and where was this party we had been to, than about the break in. Needless to say, our buzz was way beyond killed when he finally left at about 3am.

Jean had gone to the bathroom and Jimmy was sitting on the couch just starting to ask me if I could take him home, when she came back into the living room…naked. She said something to the effect of she wanted to put that behind us as soon as possible and that sex would be a good start. I was still pretty pissed and Jimmy wasn’t sure what to do. We just sat there a little stunned, staring at her until she said, “Oh come on”, grabbed us both by the hand and marched us back to the bedroom. Even though she did try to, she didn’t need to help either of us out of our clothes. She sat on the edge of the bed with us standing in front of her and stroked our cocks for a few minutes before she leaned over and started sucking Jimmy’s cock. It wasn’t the first time I had seen her sucking someone else’s cock and it certainly wouldn’t be the last, but it was very erotic to watch. After a few minutes, she shifted to sucking my cock, saying she could get used to this just before taking me in her mouth. She went back and forth between us for quite some time, mostly, I think, because she was really into what she was doing. It was pretty easy to see why she had initially been interested in Jimmy as he was very well endowed.
As she was sucking his cock, I leaned over to her ear and asked her if she was ready to get fucked. She opened her eyes wide, turned a little and looked at me and just nodded with his cock still in her mouth. She let go of his cock and fell back onto the bed, which was a waterbed, and as she rolled with the bed, she kind of snickered and said, “Somebody eat me”. Well Jimmy beat me to it and dove right into licking her pussy. She motioned for me to move up to her face so she could suck my cock some more. After a while, she let go of me and slid over more to the center of the bed. Jimmy looked at us and we both said, “Yeah” at the same time, which made us all giggle a little. He crawled over to her, knelt between her legs and slipped his arms under her thighs. He lifted her up a little, pulled her toward him a little, and as he let her back down, the head of his cock slipped into her pussy. I was kneeling next to her left shoulder and she had wrapped her hand around my cock. She started squeezing a little harder as we both watched him start to fuck his cock into her a little at a time, getting a little deeper with each stroke. After several minutes, he finally had all of his cock inside her and started pumping slowly. At that point, she pulled my cock back to her mouth and went back to sucking me.....

[COLOR=#000000][FONT=interstate] The first time I ever tasted cum was somewhat inadvertent, so this is a little story about an event with my second wife, Jean (aka Babs!). At the time, I had had no experiences or inclinations towards being bisexual, but sexual adventure and exploration were always on the menu with Jean. This turned out to be a powerful, defining moment in our 14 year relationship as well as the very beginnings of my bisexuality. [/FONT][/COLOR]
[COLOR=#000000][FONT=interstate] This event happened sometime in August of '86, a little over a month after Jean and I had started seeing each other. We had been playing in a rock band together for almost a year.Jean was 22 and I was 25 and at the time, my divorce from my first wife, Sherry, had been final for about 2 months and Jean had been out of a relationship for about 3 months. We had both seen other people during that time so, while Jean and I were both very much into each other and continuing seeing each other, we talked a lot and in particular, about not being too exclusive, especially sexually. Neither of us were ready to jump back into a heavy relationship. Being band mates had also given us the ability to talk more openly and casually than either of us had with anyone else. Between my night time regular job, her daytime regular job, and the band, we got to see each other only about once a week. I lived in an apartment complex with the pool/clubhouse/laundry room next to my building. Since she lived with her mom a few blocks from my apartment, on her days off from work, she would come over and do her laundry while she laid out by the pool, then later we would have dinner or whatever before I had to go to work.[/FONT][/COLOR]
[COLOR=#000000][FONT=interstate] On this particular day, I had had a few errands to run during the day and left before she got there. When I got back late in the afternoon, she had let herself into my apartment and was sitting on the couch in her bathing suit. I sat next to her and we talked about how our day had been. Eventually, I got around to asking if she had done any laundry. She grinned big and said no but she had used the washer in the laundry. My very puzzled look made her burst out laughing. She said she had been laying out by the pool and a guy she had known in school walked by and they started talking. Apparently, his aunt lived in the complex and he had been visiting her. Jean told me she had always wanted to fuck him so she steered the conversation toward sex. She said, "I couldn't take him to my place since my mom was there and I didn't want to bring him up here because that would just be rude, so I had him sit on one of the washers while I sucked his cock and he had me lean against it while he fucked me from behind."[/FONT][/COLOR]
[COLOR=#000000][FONT=interstate] Actually her statement made me laugh and I told her she was lucky some little old lady didn't catch her and her friend. I thanked her for sharing such intimate details about her sexual adventures and asked if he lived up to expectations. She said, "well, yes and no...he had a really nice cock but he didn't use it all that well and the situation was way less than perfect...it was fun but I didn't get off and I'm even hornier now than I was." It took just a few seconds for us to pull what clothes we had off at that point. After a few minutes of petting on the couch, I got down on the floor between her legs and started kissing her inner thighs. As I got closer to her pussy, she grabbed my hair and pulled my head up a little. She had very peculiar grin on her face and asked, "Are you sure you want to do that?" Without really thinking about why she was asking me that, I simply said yes and dove into licking her pussy. I noticed that she did taste and smell a bit different and that she was wetter than she usually was, but it still didn't register to me why. Through her moaning, as she started getting close to cumming, she said, "its so fucking erotic that you're licking me after I got fucked."...That is when it finally registered in my brain what was going on and that I was tasting that guy's cum. It not only didn't bother me but it actually turned me on enormously. I didn't say anything, but I did moan probably loud enough for her to hear as I continued licking her, a bit more intensely. We didn't say anything about it when I was fucking her, but I know she caught on to the implications of my actions and arousal. Even if I didn't understand or really think about why I was so aroused she did, and she told me years later that that moment was for her, a defining moment in our relationship.[/FONT][/COLOR]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]With my young peers - and after a while - I just felt it was unnecessary to rassle since we both knew what we wanted to do to each other but I understood the role rassling played in this. It was, in a way, about strength of mind and body, wanting to dominate and/or to be submitted. One guy told me that losing in rassling really excited him but also pushed him to be more determined not to "lose" so much while another guy told me that he'd sometimes cum in his underwear while making the other guy submit.

I'd still ask some guys, "We both know we wanna do it to each other so why rassle?" and they'd tell me me that rassling just made the sex better - and I couldn't really disagree with that. It really does get the juices flowing and made our dicks so hard and ready that it wasn't funny. Even with guys you didn't know all that well, you knew what time it was when you'd have them on their back... and they'd wrap their legs around you while moving under you like they were trying to escape - and they weren't; they were giving you a very clear hint about what they really wanted to do.

Let's stop playing around. Let's take off our pants and underwear and since I'm on the bottom, suck my dick and then put your dick in my ass and shoot your sperm into me... then we can trade places. Sometimes, though, some guys weren't interested in trading places one bit. They'd want to lose so they could suck your dick and take it in their ass and as many times as you were able to do it.

Or, as one guy told me, "I love losing to you..."

I understood it because I often liked losing, too. It was a game we played that had deeper intent than who was stronger and who wasn't and in this game, there were no "sore losers" other than dicks and assholes being made sore from repeated use...[/SIZE][/FONT]