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" A false pretext"......" A small microcosm" .... Does anyone else notice the redundant expressions the highly educated we listen to on a daily basis indulge in? And don't even get me started on oxymorons.

Hey thanks for reading and always looking to make more bi friends like me. i will try to use periods the best i can. Whats on this bi guys mind tonight or this morning is why do some guys just want to play games around meeting and talking and such. I just want to find a nice decent looking guy that's wants the same as me fwb or secret bf i guess. I dont want to send all kinds of pics all night or play games if i wanted to play games id play checkers or something. . being from a small town its tough and i know there are guys out there like me going through this same thing. Guys just be real and cock pic is nice but a body pic is nice to. if u are very private then be so but give a guy something. Some guys give us a bad name with the games they play. yes we do think about sex ALOT. But our minds bounce from sex to same sex but be nice when we meet or talk is all important saying. And one more thing if or when i meet up with a guy again and goes to kiss me don't shove your toungue down my throat and think its sexy its not!!! You don't need to find out what i had for lunch gezze anyways ill continue with that story another time thanks for reading and until next time.

My ovary is the size of a grapefruit when it should be less than the size of a golf ball. It's coming out on June 6th. Doc says he is pretty sure no cancer involved, so that's one bit of good news, but everything goes to pathologist just in case. Got more pain meds so at least that's helping a bit. Off to parents tomorrow night to be stuck til Saturday, they have DSL but who knows if I will even be able to get online with the way their pc is. I'll keep in touch with Duck if I can't get on here.

Hugs and thanks for the well wishes I have recieved.



PS.. Drew? Spellcheck requires a download LOL.

I learned late this evening Lynette died.. Lynette.. Linnet.. my once lovely little bird. Once truly beautiful and so well loved yet whose self destructive urges crushed and hurt everyone with whom she came into contact. I loved her once, and she threw it and me away as nothing and moved on. My anger and bitterness back then should have taught me much, yet it was my own failings which eventually brought home to me the lesson of Linnet.

For all the pain she caused, I could never hate her..,have never hated her. However much she twisted everything she touched and poisoned every relationship she had. Man, woman, boy and girl, she collected us all, we loved her and she cast us aside as if none of us mattered, but inside of her was a scared little girl searching for paradise by stretching for the stars and finding them too hot to handle. Drink and drugs, copious quantities of sex, partying and God knows what else all took their toll and from the beautiful, sexy creature I knew and cared so much for not so many years ago was marked and obliterated by her own misadventure. No longer lovely, No longer exquisite to gaze upon.. just another wasted tragic life. One of so many in this city and elsewhere in our world.

I wrote of Lynette recently and have seen her but once since I visited her in hospital.. aged and marked by a life of sordid and tragic circumstance, much of hher own making, sucked in and drained by her own weakness, fear and selfishness, she at least had begun to make peace with the world. She certainly made her peace with me. And I am glad of that for no one should leave this world filled with contempt,hatred and loathing, even of or for themselves. I have long since forgiven Linnet pain caused to me. Her own agonies are now gone and she can harm no other.. most of all she can no longer harm herself and and suffer the conflicts which were within her... I gained but little hints, and I am the first to admit to never fully understanding her, nor do I believe did any other..but we did make our peace.. it is simply so tragic that her internal conflict was too hard to for her to bear.. she didn't want to get well, of that I am firmly convinced and no one will ever convince me otherwise..

I sometimes tell people that once I love I never quite stop.. it is as true about Lyn as of anyone in my past.. there is a little corner of my heart remains forever hers.. no one is all bad and I have never believed that Lyn was any different... so few who knew her have much good to say of her but for all the pain she gave to the world.. all that fucking grief she gave to us all.. our last two meetings showed me that she gave far more pain. agony and grief to herself than she ever did to any of us..... the Linnet is free now, and if I do not believe in God, for that little bird I truly hope to be wrong and that she finds a place where she can fly with the freedom, peace and joy she never had in this life, once again beautiful and probably for the first time happy.

*laffs* Spread those fucking wings u tart!!! It will be a change from ya bloody legs!! RIP

I will try to use periods lol try.... Anyways id like to say thanks for all who read my blogs. So great things about being bi the scenery. I was at my fav;)orite bar with my wife and enjoying some live music. And so beautiful scenery but i find myself looking at the fellas more than the ladies. I found my girl but a could around here would be kewl. Anyways so that's what's kewl about being bi it's not a problem its a fun soultion in socitey that's my thought for today not as exciting as the last 2 but not all can be so enjoy being bi and be safe until next time .....

The Nj Demons stated a legendary 5-3 victory within the New You are able to Rangers in Game Five from the Eastern Conference finals to maneuver within touching distance from the Stanley Cup finals.


New Jersey's Martin Brodeur made 25 saves but Henrik Lundqvist made just 12 saves for that Rangers while permitting four goals in a game title the very first time this postseason. Nevertheless, Brodeur is going to be mightily relieved to depart Madison Square Garden having a 3-2 series lead after gifting the Rangers their crucial third goal within this high-scoring encounter.
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The Demons required an impressive 3- lead inside the first 10 mins of Game Five. But Nj allow the lead be a waste to three-3 before rallying and scoring two times late within the third period to assert the victory.


The victory lifted Nj to some 3-2 lead over their mix-river rivals within the best-of-seven Eastern Conference finals and they'll have the opportunity to seal a location within the Cup finals the very first time in nine years once the show returns to Nj on Friday.
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Gionta got the Demons going, flipping a rebound past Rangers netminder Henrik Lundqvist under three minutes into the overall game, and Patrik Elias deflected in another 90 seconds later before New You are able to had even registered a go on Brodeur. Your Garden crowd were stunned into silence when Travis Zajac's slap shot on the three-on-two break got past Lundqvist have less the stick side for any 3- Demons lead with 10:11 residing in the outlet period.


The very best-seeded Rangers responded having a goal by Brandon Prust, back following a one-game suspension for elbowing, 5 minutes later and 32 seconds in to the second period captain Ryan Callahan cut the Devils' result in 3-2.
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In complete control, the Rangers obtained the equalizer through Marian Gaborik 17 seconds in to the third as Brodeur miscontrolled the puck to permit the possibility which in turn crept underneath the goalkeeper.


But Ryan Carter place the Demons ahead again from the feed by Stephen Gionta with 4:24 remaining, and Zach Parise obtained a clear internet goal with more than thirty seconds left.


The La Nobleman have previously reserved their devote the Stanley Cup finals after overall the Western Conference title in five games within the Phoenix Coyotes.
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The Nobleman arrived at the finals in only 14 games (4-1, 4-, 4-1), as the Rangers have previously fought through 19 games and also the Demons 17.

Hey guys and gals i have to warn ya periods are not my friend you have been warned lol anyways the subject today who out there has been outed this guy was by a x ok i will tell ya the story we were at the bar and a bunch of my friends and me and my gf was out i don't know what exactly brought it up but my x outed me infront of alot of my friends of course i tried to deny it because i was embarrassed of course even though i knew it was true after that for a joke someone played dancing queen it hurt i won't lie so i had to take my best friend and he asked me if it was true i said yes he said he was ok with it as long as i dont hit on him i laughed and said he wasn't my type lol but im out to alot of people but i can be me its scary but im me i don't know why i feel this way but i do and no matter what know one can change you and you can try to hide your feelings but you can't so enjoy and i know alot has to hide it so be safe but remember its apart of you now so be you its easier in the end..... until next time all please coment id love to hear from all of ya friends like me bi guys or bi girls drop me a line who couldn't use more friends that feel this way questions r kewl too....

I am a good cock sucker and cum lover for all, but now I want to wear panties and nylons and bra and suck cock but then just maybe I think I'd want you to cum on my nylons and then fed me ur cock for a sweet cleaning. So if anyone out there whats to try this with me then get back to me.

But really i'd love to find a local guy who wants sucked at times....I'm always free on the weekends and lQQking. Anyone else feel like I do.

Would love to hear from anyone who dresses to