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Last night I went out for some drinks and got very very drunk. As a mainly straight guy I tend to crave dick in my mouth after a few drinks. I love to feel slutty and naughty. Interacting sexually with another guy provides that feeling.
On my way home I posted to a gay cruising site that I would be completely naked in the local public toilets if anyone wanted to drop in and cum on my face. It was almost midnight and I wasn?t sure if anyone would turn up.
Regardless, I took all my clothes off, left them in the cubicle, walked out and knelt on the piss covered floor by the urinal and started to wank. By this point I was ridiculously hard at the thought of being so exposed.
About 5 minutes later I could hear footsteps outside walking towards the door. My heart was racing! Do I stay where I am? What if it?s just someone NOT looking for action and is just wanting to go for a piss? Do I run back to the cubicle?
I was drunk and horny as hell so I decided to stay there, trying desperately not to cum all over the floor with excitement.
I heard the door open and footsteps inside. A guy, slightly overweight in his mid 50s walked straight over to me and without saying a word got his cock out and shoved it into my mouth. It was already hard, completely shaved and had a huge mushroom head on it. He took hold of my head with both hands and REALLY slowly slid his cock in and out of my mouth. I had to time my breathing with him pulling it out of my mouth. I was in heaven. Completely naked with a stranger using my mouth as a hole for his pleasure. I had to stop playing with myself as I felt like I was going to cum everywhere.
What seemed like a couple of minutes later (I don?t know how long it was) I could hear more footsteps. This freaked out the guy who had been making love to my face and he turned to the urinal as if he was going for a piss.
Sure enough another guy walked in. Much younger. Late teens, maybe early 20s. He stood at the urinal in between me, still wanking on my knees with drool hanging off my face and chin, and next to the first guy. It didn?t take long for the 2nd guy to spin towards me and present me with a beautiful looking cock. Long, thick, perfectly proportioned and uncut with trimmed pubes at the base. This thing was absolutely beautiful to look at. I leaned forward with my mouth open and held my face maybe an inch from the head. It wasn?t long before he was wanking it, teasing me with it and brushing it against my lips and rubbing it over my face, but denying me the pleasure of letting me have it in my mouth. I whispered ?please?? to him and he slowly pushed it into my mouth.
I started sucking it like my life depended on it, feeling incredibly slutty, sucking on a guy who I will probably never see again. Getting my pleasure from giving a stranger pleasure. He slid his jeans down and took off his jumper and coat and hung them on the partition of the cubicle. He had a good body. I don?t find guys attractive but I can appreciate a good physique.
The first guy quickly moved and stood on the other side of him and before I knew it I had two strangers dicks in my face. I was taking it in turns sucking them, going from one to the other like I?ve seen in porn and then stuffing them both in my mouth at once. I couldn?t believe I was doing this. I asked them if they would both cum on my face. Neither of them responded verbally but I knew they were getting close to emptying their balls. I kept sucking for all I was worth, feeling like an absolute whore, groaning, slurping, drooling and gagging. The first guy said ?I?m gonna cum? and started wanking furiously in my face. He told me to open my mouth and held my chin. Almost immediately his cock was pulsating and shooting stream after stream of sperm over my face. Whilst he was emptying his load over my face the second younger guy started to shoot, groaning loudly and absolutely covering me. It was in my eyes, in my hair, over my face, in my mouth. I was absolutely dripping. I put my hand to my dripping hard cock and came almost immediately. I was shooting load after load out in front of me like a cannon onto the floor. It felt absolutely amazing.
The guys tidied themselves up and left leaving a minute or so between them. I was still knelt, absolutely drenched in sperm and feeling used like a whore. It felt wonderful. I quickly scooped up as much as I could of my load from the floor and added it to my face, smearing it over my cheeks and forehead. I went back to my clothes and carefully got dressed, trying to avoid removing any of the cum from my face.
It was time to walk home. About 2 miles. It felt incredibly horny walking home, past strangers in the dark with buckets of cum over my face. I don?t think any of them noticed, not even the guy who I asked what time it was. If he did notice he didn?t say anything.
When I got home, my wife was in bed asleep so I jumped in the shower and put my clothes at the bottom of the washing basket. I?m doing today?s load of washing.

i walked into house and she said you open to maybe letting me see you take on 2 men i said when after we get done just me and you she said for the next hour or so well i said okay we went in to a 69 and then some fucking she said this time you get all 3 holes because you make me hot for it well a hour or so later we got done and he showed up with his friend and grinned she looks happy now our turn when his friend got naked i took a deep breath he had 8 inchs and was thicker than her husband well i sucked her husband got his cock hard and while i was getting him ready she lubed my asshole up i got on all fours and he started in it hurt a little but then got to feeling good and i as i worked my ass to take it balls deep his buddy put it in my mouth and started getting sucked he was really liking it and then when it was his time to fuck me he laid me on my back legs in the air while they watched me take it when we got done and i was leaving the woman told me if i was interested we could meet again so for the next 2 years we would meet up some but a lot of times it was just her and me

met them on a a site call aff we talked a little and they where not far off from me the woman said would i do bi sex whith her husband she wanted to watch had to do him first before she would do me she made it clear he would be giving it to me and i would be taking it while she watched we finally agreed to meet the first time we rode there jeep up in the hills and did it there her husband had a 7 inch thick cock and i sucked him off then i eaaaaaaaat her pussy and fucked her while he watched by then he was hard again and wanted my ass so he lubed me up and she watched him fuck me in the ass for a few minutes she got hot and i eat her pussy and then when he got done with me she let me fuck her again she did make a date to meet at there house in 2 weeks

Look. I'll suck your dick, happily and gladly. If fucking is on the menu, I'll gladly assume the position and take the dick and, in both cases and situations, as long as you're not being rough with me - and I do mean MY version of what that means - then we're going to have a good time but if I tell you to ease up, well, you only get one warning. If I tell you to stop, please, do us both a favor and stop because this is supposed to be fun and satisfying and... don't test me. Don't push your luck.

You treat people the way you want to be treated. A little "rough?" Sure, I understand that, and I can accept it. You start playing "power/dominance" games with me, we're going to have a problem and one you don't want any more than I do. It's... regrettable. It shouldn't happen and I don't have any illusions in this: Some guys think that their rough way to have sex is the way it always has to be and they don't think or expect someone to resist and fight back. I shouldn't have to let another guy know that I'm just as much of a man as they are but I grew up having to point that out to guys.

I didn't put up with it because I didn't have to. Cease and desist immediately and if you don't, shit. Don't test my resolve. I've... had my share of having to resort to violence to protect myself during sex because you have to in that situation. In the end, this shit is... an occupational hazard when you're about having sex with other men.

csreef, thanks again for what you said - I really do appreciate it.

Once things got going on the internet, my god - I was coming into contact with a lot of men who either wanted to "beat a guy up" or be "beaten up" during sex. I was sucking a guy off one day and he hauled off and slapped in the face and I was kicking his ass before I realized that I had even moved.

He didn't understand why I kicked his ass... because he thought that this is what cocksuckers like. Saw it watching porn. Now a lot of the shit I experienced as an adult started to make sense. Not only had some men learned some bad habits, but they were also learning more of them watching porn. I... understood this but early experiences had already taught me that I didn't have to put up with it.

And I wasn't going to. Like, I'm sucking a guy's dick and when I stopped to swallow and catch my breath, he slapped me in the face with his dick. I told him, "Don't do that." He did it again and asked, "What the fuck are you gonna do about it, bitch?"

He found out. I'm sure he woke up wondering what happened. Homie don't play that shit. Both men and women proved that they could be into some... shit. Had sex with a woman who neglected to tell me before the fact that she was into BDSM pain and, okay, I'll hurt someone in defending myself... but to do it on purpose? I made her happy since, you know, I know how to cause lots of pain but... I threw up because this wasn't the way I was taught to treat women during sex. I'd have guys checking me out online and hitting me up and into the very rough stuff and saying that if I was a real man, then I had to take it.

Bullshit. Okay. I grew up with sex starting with some wrestling but no intent on causing harm but it was about... dominance. It was fun, made us all hot and horny and the sex would be delightful. But, yeah, some guys wrestled as a prelude to rough sex and, I guess, figuring that if they can best you like this, then you'd be compliant to whatever they felt like doing... and I wasn't having any of it.

Throughout it all, the violence was just something could happen and you learned this and if you didn't learn how to deal with it, then you'd be victimized and the only way this makes any sense is if you actually like being victimized, brutalized, manhandled, slapped around, etc.

I grew up learning to not let this happen to me. It's really not something that an apology is called for: It just was what it was and for a lot of reasons; some "made sense" while most of it didn't, both then and now.

Many of my male and female friends got sexually brutalized by those assholes cornering them and forcing them to have sex with all the guys in attendance and if they didn't comply, they'd get beaten up until they complied and the sex was very rough and caused a lot of injuries to pussies and assholes. One such group tried that on me and the fight was epic. I'd said no, they say they were gonna pull a train me anyway and... I badly hurt most of them. Broken bones; dislocated joints; I heard that the guy I snap-kicked in the balls needed surgery.

Word got around to not try that shit with me but, yeah, some guys would and I couldn't let them get away with it. Now, if you think it was bad in the early days, being an adult didn't make things any better. Even when I'd gotten taller and all that, there were men who saw a skinny guy and since they were bigger, they thought they could do whatever they wanted to. I had reasoned, from the early days, that big guys and guys with big dicks felt this way; there were guys with smaller dicks who I thought were rough because they had small dicks and that they had something to prove.

I had to learn that if a guy said he liked rough sex, just walk away. The wolves in sheep's clothing would reveal themselves at some point and if they started the rough stuff, I'd ask them nicely to take it easy... but if they ignored me, well. Most of the time, I'd just walk away but, sometimes, these guys would be so arrogant that they wouldn't let me walk away... and learned that they should have.

While I understood that some folks liked it rough to really rough, I'm not one of them and to assume that I am - and for whatever stupid reason they'd think that - well, things could get ugly and years of training put me in a certain mind-space about violence being directed at me in any way. No means no; if I tell you in the beginning that I don't want to be fucked, don't try to fuck me - how simple and understandable is that? If I give you a warning not to be holding my head and fucking my mouth and you go right back to doing it, we're going to have a problem - but one I'd hope we can settle with words and like grownups but, yeah, again - when some guys got their dick hard, they were pretty unintelligent, to put it that way.

If I tell you to stop, just stop. I was learning a lot about men and their attitudes about having sex. Like you've seen me write here before, early on, I started learning a lot of the same things women learned to hate about us. Being too rough; trying to do shit to us that we didn't like, want, or agreed to and then trying to force the issue and like we had no say in any of this. I learned why some girls/women just laid there and took it and while that sounds like a dumb thing to do, it was better than getting your ass kicked or it wasn't worth any violence or drama hopping off.

But when you weren't just going to let it happen, you asked for it to stop and if it didn't, you made it stop. No means no; stop means stop and right the fuck now.

It didn't take us long to find out what guys didn't know how to do it right and by right I mean not being really rough and once they were identified, they were avoided; if a girl didn't want to do it with a guy, chances were you'd better not do it with him either.

One kid I had sex with asked me afterward why I hadn't roughed him up and was miffed that I hadn't; it confused me because, of course, I was told not to do that (with girls) but he told me that most of the guys who he let fuck him were rough and pretty much beat him up and, gasp, made his asshole bleed! There came a time where a lot of guys... learned to be wolves in sheep's clothing. Sweet as punch before the fact but the moment their dick got hard, anything but sweet. I was used to being able to tell a guy, if I thought he was fucking me too hard, "Not so hard, okay?" and he'd ease up but there were guys I would say that to and... they try to fuck me harder. Called me names. Wanted to beat on me.

Oh, hells to the no! I learned quickly that just like getting into a real fight, if I didn't defend myself, I was going to get my ass kicked so when some guys started acting like total assholes and figured that they could do anything they wanted to me so if I told them stop and they didn't stop, I made them stop. Their excuse for it? They thought that's the way guys are supposed to have sex with anyone because that's what they were told.

I took the martial arts because, as Mr. Myagi taught Daniel, you learn how to fight so you don't have to. I was that kid who looked like a pushover... until those who tried to mess with like that learned that I wasn't. Guys who were bigger than me just felt that they could have rough sex with me and there was nothing I could do about it and, well, they found out that I could and I would do ANYTHING I had to do to defend myself from being manhandled and guys not stopped when I asked them to.

Shit, the guy who drugged and raped me treated me better than some guys did (although I did try to kill him). Still, even though I thought and believed that it was some seriously fucked up shit to have to defend yourself having sex, that... was just how it could be and, again, sometimes, you didn't know that it was going to be like getting your assk kicked until he started trying to kick your ass.

I remember punching a guy in the face because he slapped me on the ass while fucking me doggy style. I had to apologize; it was an automatic reaction. Oops. I uppercut a guy in his balls for grabbing my head and forcing his dick down my throat; he wouldn't let go of my head so I made him let go. I would learn that some guys looked at me like I was a sissy which meant girly which meant they could do anything they wanted and there was nothing I could do - and because that's how they treated girls. Sadly, a lot of girls wouldn't or couldn't fight back... but I wasn't a girl.

You try to give me the rough trade shit, I hope you have insurance. I couldn't figure out, in the beginning, why guys were like this but it became clear to me that I couldn't let them hurt me and like they were doing to others. Like, there were a bunch of guys running around and "pulling a train" on unsuspecting victims and if you're not familiar with that term, it's what we call a gangbang today.

csreef reached out to me with some kind words re the violence I encountered having sex with men and I begin this by saying how much I appreciate what he said.

But if I didn't learn anything, it's that when some guys get their dicks hard, there's no telling how they're going to behave. There were guys who had a lot of misconceptions about having sex and one of those misconception was that sex always had to be rough. I would often hear guys talking about the sex they were having with other guys and how it had to be rough because we're men and we can take it better than women could or would... and, to me, that was bullshit since one of the other things I quickly learned was how I liked to have sex.

I knew and/or encountered guys who had issues with their sexuality and felt that they had to take out their anger issues on other guys. I knew and/or encountered guys who felt that they were on a mission to teach faggots a lesson on what it meant to be a real man and I couldn't figure out how they were teaching such a lesson when if I'm a faggot for sucking dick and being fucked, um, what does that make the guy I'm having sex with?

I had bi friends who'd tell me that they got with a guy and... pretty much got mugged and even raped as well as being made to do things that they didn't want to do or had agreed to and the thing that came to my mind was something my mother would say about being able to defend myself: You should never let someone make you do something you don't want to do. One of the things I said to csreef in my reply to him was that it didn't take me (or others) very long to realized that if you allow someone to make you a victim, you will always be seen as one. So being able to defend myself became a priority and like I also told csreef, I did not want to come home all beaten the fuck up and having to explain to my mother why I let someone kick my ass, let alone how that came to be.

I've had to defend myself against unwanted advances coming from men who, as far as I was concerned, didn't know how to have sex. Even in the younger days, a lot of my friends would tell me whatever their fathers told them about how to have sex with a girl and how they had to let her know that he was a real man by just having their way with her and if she resisted, beat her ass and keep having your way with her.

If you're frowning at this point, you should be but this was the mid-1960s and there were a lot of angry guys running around who were so fucked up in the head that women refused to have sex with them so for a lot of them, having sex with males was the answer but if they were brutalizing women via sex, they just transferred that behavior to having sex with men... and I wasn't having any of it. If you forced someone to have sex, this was the wrong way to have sex and it made sense to me that if I was being told to be gentle with girls, that meant that since I was having sex with guys, too, I had to be gentle with them.

Okay, being told by both that they weren't going to break told me I was being too gentle and I understood that but there is a difference here; you can be "rough" without literally kicking someone ass trying to have sex with them.