RisingBi
Jan 24, 2020, 6:23 AM
I am wondering whether bisexual people here, men or women, have simultaneous sexual feelings for men and women, or whether they have a period of time, however short or long, where they are just feeling straight, and other times where they are just feeling gay. That seems to be the case for me, for the most part.
For example, in the past, I would feel straight, interested in women, thinking about women, fantasizing about women, and only interested in looking at straight and lesbian porn. Now I do have to say that the lesbian porn was more complicated for me, because sometimes it would invoke the homosexuality within me. I would look at lesbian porn or erotica and see the incredible beauty of two people of the same sex making love, and then that would invoke within me the thought of making love with another man and the beauty in that. And other times, which was most of the time in the 25 years before meeting my last girlfriend three years ago, I would feel gay, interested in men, thinking about men, fantasizing about men, and only interested in looking at gay porn. I would have zero interest in naked women on my screen or thinking about a woman in any way. This dichotomy also presented itself as my having no interest in bi MMF porn. I'm either straight, and just interested in the female naked form, or gay and just interested in the male naked form. In fact, MF straight porn was kind of not working for me completely either because there was both a cock and a pussy there. Which should I have desire for? I'm a weird and confusing guy.
But I clearly get it that there are a lot of people that engage in bisexual threesomes and group sex, and enjoy that very very much. Now, I've never had the opportunity for that, so I'm not sure how I would be in that situation. I fantasize about it, and sort of enjoy my fantasies about it, but I think my pleasure in the fantasy is only a little bit compared to male-only gay sex. There's just a switch in me it seems where I can only be straight or only gay, but not both. I was wondering what other people experience.
For example, in the past, I would feel straight, interested in women, thinking about women, fantasizing about women, and only interested in looking at straight and lesbian porn. Now I do have to say that the lesbian porn was more complicated for me, because sometimes it would invoke the homosexuality within me. I would look at lesbian porn or erotica and see the incredible beauty of two people of the same sex making love, and then that would invoke within me the thought of making love with another man and the beauty in that. And other times, which was most of the time in the 25 years before meeting my last girlfriend three years ago, I would feel gay, interested in men, thinking about men, fantasizing about men, and only interested in looking at gay porn. I would have zero interest in naked women on my screen or thinking about a woman in any way. This dichotomy also presented itself as my having no interest in bi MMF porn. I'm either straight, and just interested in the female naked form, or gay and just interested in the male naked form. In fact, MF straight porn was kind of not working for me completely either because there was both a cock and a pussy there. Which should I have desire for? I'm a weird and confusing guy.
But I clearly get it that there are a lot of people that engage in bisexual threesomes and group sex, and enjoy that very very much. Now, I've never had the opportunity for that, so I'm not sure how I would be in that situation. I fantasize about it, and sort of enjoy my fantasies about it, but I think my pleasure in the fantasy is only a little bit compared to male-only gay sex. There's just a switch in me it seems where I can only be straight or only gay, but not both. I was wondering what other people experience.